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assalamualaikum

hElP²… my evil + naughty sister is bullying me…she just hit me with her favourite bellon…. sheesh..and i thought that big sister are suppose to bully the little ones… how come i’m in opposite situation?

ok..todays news.. no more complaining ( if i keep on complaining, people will definately thinsk i’m such a WhInNeR…and i wouldn’t like people to label me with such attitude)… let’s talk about dreams..yeah..dreams a.k.a ambition, goals etc

have you ever had a dreams…like having big house, big cars, big family and big husband ( ugh..that’s terrifying)… i guess everyone won’t deny the fact that this is in fact very² common…

when i was small..i always have this particular dream..that i won’t get married… i will have a nice cosy clinic and..i will cure my patient….and i will give free of charge treatment to those that can’t afford it..but for those that is freaking rich… its a different case….=p ( mcm baik je shafinez nie….)

and i will live in a big house…and i will force my hot great grandma…my gorgeous grandma and my cute grandfather to live with me and my adorable parents and siblings…. i even will ask my uncles and aunty to live with me and also my darling cousins ( if they want to ) soo basically..my house need to be gigantic and it will be full of my dearest family… i would even ask my dearest good girlfriends to stay with me..if they are not attach…hahaha… i’m sure we would have loads of fun together…

*sigh… what a wonderful life it would be…. having all my love ones staying together….

i know that my dream sounds a bit crazy.. ok².. tooo crazy… its just that…the idea of having all my love ones near to me..make me feel safe and peaceful…it makes me feel comfortable…maybe i’m afraid to lose them and the fact that..as we grow older we tend to drift away from each other…..and at last.. those time that we share together will only be a vivid memory…. i guess  getting older and driting appart from those that i treasure the most terrifies me… i sound immature am i? *sigh…….. well… you are right bloggy dear… maybe this dream are not meant to be…. life is like a bitter medicine… no matter how hard you push it away..you just have to swallow it…  and in the end your pain will be cured….and in the end you will held you head high and keep on going… with the pain heal… turn into a scar..and sooner or later will fade away……

uwaaaa..i don’t wanna lose you guys… i hate (x10000) the feeling of losing the ones i care, love and cheerish… i don’t want this to happen..oh bloggy dear..my heart is aching… can you make this feeling stop…  ( its the feeling that i always had when i send my friends away..the ones that study in intec and my hacc friends… or when its end of form 5 and in uitm…how come i’m the one that always kena ‘tinggal’…i hate this feeling… please make it go away .. ); )

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